HAPPY NEW YEAR !

WHEN BRE EATS IT GIVES ME A CHANCE TO CATCH UP ON THE COMPUTER STUFF. (SORRY EVERYTHING IS TYPED 1 HANDED WHILE MY CHIN HOLDS THE BOTTLE AND THE OTHER ARM HOLDS HER)IT'S JUST BRE AND I BRINGING IN THE NEW YEAR TOGETHER. MARK'S AT WORK TONIGHT AND IT WILL BE THE FIRST TIME IN 12 YEARS WE HAVE NOT BEEN TOGETHER ON NEW YEARS. IF I CAN'T HAVE MARK AT LEAST I HAVE A PART OF HIM HERE WITH ME BRING IN THE NEW YEAR.

WHILE SITTING HERE I WAS REFLECTING ON THE WHOLE NEW YEARS THING AND I'M NOT A BIG FAN OF RESOLUTIONS. I AM A STRONG BELIEVER IN GOALS AND NOT THAT BRE IS HERE I HAVE REACHED ALL MY GOALS.

*GRADUATE HIGH SCHOOL (DONE MAY 1999)
*GRADUATE BEAUTY SCHOOL (DONE AUG 1999)
*BUY A HOUSE ON MY OWN BEFORE AGE 25 (DONE MAY 2001 AT AGE 20)
*BUY A BRAND NEW CAR (DONE JAN 2004 WITH GRAND AM)
*A JOB THAT ALLOWS ME TO PUT FAMILY FIRST,BE MYSELF AND TO BE A PART OF A SUCCESSFUL GROWING COMPANY (DONE IN MAY 2006)
*GET MARRIED BEFORE 25(SEPT 8 2007 AGE 26)
*QUIT SMOKING TO START TRYING TO HAVE A BABY (DEC 2007)
*HAVE A FAMILY BEFORE 25(DEC 11TH 2008 AGE 27)

SOME GOALS I DIDN'T DO WITH IN MY TIME LINE BUT I STILL DID THEM.
NOW IT'S TIME TO MAKE NEW GOALS.

*I WANT TO BE THE BEST MOM I CAN BE.

*TO BE HEALTHIER. GOD KNOWS IF I SAY I WANT TO BE SKINNIER IT DOESN'T WORK FOR ME SO HEALTHIER IS MY GOAL.

*A GOOD WIFE FOR MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND THAT OVER THE LAST YEAR HAS SHOWN ME WHAT AN AMAZING MAN HE IS.

*BE AS GOOD OF A FRIEND AS OTHERS AS THEY ARE TO ME.(SOME PEOPLE I REALLY NEED TO BE BETTER FRIENDS TO)

THAT'S ALL MY GOALS FOR NOW. WE WILL SEE WHAT I CAN ADD TO IT. I KNOW IT WILL TAKE ME THE REST OF MY LIFE TO BE THE BEST MOM, FRIEND AND WIFE I CAN BE.

Christmas Picture

Bre was so little that we didnt' take he out to see Santa this year he came to her for picture's.


These Booties were a gift from Mrs. Coon Mark's 6th grade teacher. She has always been a special person to him and she gave these to Bre along with this ornament



Bre's first Baby doll

Kuddo's to all the parent's

This process has been amazing and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I am asstonished on how all the great mom's in this world do it. I know anyone can be a parent but being a wonderful one is alot of work.

Mom's need more then 1 day a year. Dad' s too. I think if you childern have a roof over there heads, food in there stomach and love in there hearts you need to stop and pat yourself on the back. If they have good morals and respect for others you need thank god for giving you the wisdow to be a good parent.

Let's just hope I have been blessed with that wisdom.

BRE'S FAVORITE HANG OUT SPOT'S

SHE HAS 3 FAVORITE SPOT'S

ONE IS ON MY CHEST. WHEN I SIT AT THE COMPUTER I RECLINE LITTLE WHICH GIVES ME ONE HAND TO TYPE AND ONE ON HER. I HAVE BEEN DOING A LITTLE WORK FROM HOME AND IT WORKS PERFECT I GET TO SNUGGLE HER AND FEEL LIKE MY OLD SELF AGAIN.

EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED SO MUCH IN MY LIFE I LIKE THAT WORK IS THE SAME. MY NEW ROLE AS A MOTHER HAS CHANGED MY ROLE AS A WIFE. MARK ALREADY IS TALKING ABOUT WANTING MORE KIDS. I WAS ALWAYS THE ONE THAT SAID 3-4 KIDS AND HE SAID 1 NOW COMPLETE ROLE REVERSAL AFTER YOU SEE BRE'S 2ND FAVORITE SPOT YOU WILL SEE WHY HE WANTS MORE.




EVERY TIME SHE SNUGGLES WITH DADDY THEY BOTH FALL A SLEEP


3RD FAVORITE SPOT



IF YOU LOOK CLOSELY YOU CAN SEE TIGGERS EARS HE IS STILL NOT SURE ABOUT HER. HE'S NOT AS SCARED AS HE WAS AT FIRST. TIPPY DOESN'T MIND HER ACTUALLY SHE WILL COME GET ME WHEN BREANNA STARTS CRYING AS FOR DEANO WE DON'T SEE HER MUCH UNLESS SHE''S COMING TO SMELL THE BABY FURNITURE

Getting ready for Santa !!!

We are supposed to be getting ready for Santa this weekend, but with all the snow we haven't been to town yet.I haven't bought anything yet. Mark stopped on his way home to pick up a few things I needed to try some new recipes out. I was feeling good the other day and so I made some Chocolate Chip and some sugar cookies. I figure I would make up some platters/ I also attempted to make a peanut butter cake but I t didn't turn out so good. That same day I slipped on something on the floor and every since then I haven't been feeling well. I just Jarred myself. Needless to say we will see if I get any more of my baked goods done.

As for Miss Breanna, she is good. I thinking I'm somewhat figuring things out. Slowly but surly. I do have to admit that the 2 things I couldn't live with out is the Boppy pillow and the bouncer. She didn't seem to be a big fan of the swing yet. The Boppy pillow is the only thing that allows me to get sleep. At night the only way I could get her to sleep was if I was holding her. Which meant I didn't get any sleep after 2 days of that I decided to put her next to me in the Boppy pillow. She is still laying on her back and she is secure. It works great. I'm afraid of her suffocating so I only sleep with a sheet and make sure there is nothing on the bed with us. Great idea until the weekend rolls around and we add Mark in the bed. We have been working on putting her in her Crib every time she falls asleep..instead of leaving her in the bouncer or holding her we carry her in and put her in the Crib. Hopefully by the time Mark is home with us again he can sleep in bed With me and she can sleep by herself.

Breanna's 1 week old !!!!

Where has the time went ??? You would think that if you don't sleep much time would seem to drag on, but that's not true. I thought I would Blog for a minute while she was sleeping. We had her first Dr's appointment yesterday. Angie drove us in and Carried Breanna for me. Mark was going to catch some sleep and MOm has been at the Hospital with Grandpa this week. I called Angie and she was more then willing to help me out. (Thank you)

Everythign went good at our appointments. I am now staple free and everyday I feel better and better. At Breanna's appointment they said that she is in the 75 percentile. Which is nice. The girl has grown 1/4 of an inch in 6 days. Now she weighs 8lbs 120z.

When we came home from the hospital Bre was on formula and we were bottle feeding her to help get her tongue down in place. Working with the pacifiers and the bottle she was finally able to actually suck.(thank god) I really didn't like the idea of shoving a tube down her throut to feed her. Well when we got home are main concern has been to make sure she was continuing to eating. With the c-section I only have one chair that is comfortable to sit in and it's hard to get Bre in a good position to breast feed so needless to say that is not going good. Tuesday night we transitioned her to just my milk. Mark like's being able to feed her too so the pumping is working out. Hopefully we will get the nursing thing down and I will only pump when he is going to feed her. On thing that I noticed is that Breanna's not as gassy and smelly with my milk. Thank God for that. She takes afer Mark with the gas thing and it should be illegel to give those genes to such a beautful baby girl.

I am still trying to get my life in order. I feel like there is so much to do and so little time. Granted there are ALOT of things I can't do, but I'm trying to get all the things done that I can. In one day our house turned into Baby World that doesn't bother me but Christmas is a week away and all these things that we want to do with her for her first Christmas we are running out of time and energy to do it.
After Bre the main focus for me is Christmas.

I did want to THANK EVERYONE for your calls and concerns for us and the extra Help!

A few Pictures

Ok I have already gotten yelled at for not putting up pictures so now that Grandpa and jackie Wolfe have been enertaining and Mark and I have had a few minutes to do some things I can quickly add some pictures


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Mark took this Picture minutes after she was born via c-section. That was after the Dr said "Congratulations you have a little Giant"
When they rushed her off with her breathing problems this was the only sight I had of her.



Great Grandma Edna




Grandma Sandy




Breanna and her pinky accessory ( She has had him wrapped around his finger since before birth)






Uncle Steve Aunt Janae and Nick came for a visit and it appeared that Nick liked his new baby cousin



Grandma Sue



Grandpa Wolfe and Jackie



Uncle Eric



Aunt Jess



The girls


Andrea

She's HERE !!!!!

I Promise to put pictures up but we just got home so I will put pictures up tomorrow or the next day or the next day but in case you didn't know the info here it is.




BREANNA PAIGE HELT
BORN 10:08P.M.ON DEC 11TH
9LBS 20 3/4 INCHES LONG


I will put pictures and her story up later take care

First day off

As you know if you have been reading my blog yesterday was my first day off. It was pretty unadventurous. I got up in the mornging when Mark got home and after being up for a couple of hours I decided it was nap time already. Once I got up from my nap I got our laundry caught up. I had been trying everynight to do a load but last week I was just to tierd and our laundry was really slacking. I had some Christmas onsies that needed washed along with her Christmas dress so Yesteray I got the all done. By the time I made dinner and loaded the dish washer I was unable to muster up the energy to take care of the mountains of clothes on the Dinning room table. So to keep my sainity I decided it would be a good idea to leave it for today. I told Mark I didn't want to get it all done in one day because I would be going crazy for sure with nothing to do.

Speaking of Mark he stayed home last night. He went to work and on the way he slide through the stop sign. When we have bad weather wwe always TRY to make it to 27 and if it is bad or if it has been more then 20 minutes it's time to come back home. (usuallly it's a 5 minute drive) Needless to say he came back home due to all the ice. It wouldn't be so bad if we knew when this baby would get here. He would risk the drive in more if he didn't have to worry about me going into Labor.

I thought I would blog this mornign because I'm not sure what our day will bring. My freind Ashley had her baby on Sunday and they are going to be home today. She has a little boy and I can't wait to see him. I told Mark maybe our baby will be jealous of me Holding MOnte and she will decide to coem out. (Wishful Thinking)

take care and I will talk to you tomorrow

Tippy's New Bed

Tippy and Dee are lounging on this new Pillow that MOM made for Tippy. Tigger was laying in the middle until I gabbed the camera. We never got around to Carpet and every winter Tippy lays on rugs that I put in different area's for her. Mom brought her over a Dog bed last night as a present. Tippy wasn't sure if she was supposed to lay on it and looked at me funny when I told her it was o.k. She has a tendency lately to pull dirty clothes out of the hamper or steal pillows of the bed to lay on so needless to say she had a new dog bed coming anyways.

My Last Day

Today I decided was my last Day of work. I am so tierd and my Brain is not into focusing on anything. I was ready for a nap at 11:00 this morning. It's just time to stay home. I told them I would be going crazy by tomorrow afternoon and they would see me back on Wednesday. Ha Ha!
Today as we were working and looked out our windows we seen 3 deer in the woods behind our building. They were about 45 yards when we first seen them and a yearling came up to my window at work. It was so nice to see. Surprising in Lansing. I work right on Lake Lansing rd so it was really amazing. It reminded me of how much I like to sit out in the woods in the blind and watch the deer. Growing up I went in the woods almost every year. I have never been with someone that has shot one. The last time I sat in a Blind was with my little Brother Cory. I sat with him a few times. We always had a good time watching the wild life and chit chatting. I have really been missing him lately.(attitude and all)
I called the Dr.'s office today and found out that the absolute latest that I will have this baby is the 17th. She was supposed to be a Thanksgiving baby not a Christmas Baby. I told them that I need a worse case scenario and she said the 17th. I would go in on the 16th and by the 17th I would have her. We talked for about 10 minutes and I said that my sainity needs to know. I can't take it anymore. She said depending on the cercumstance on Thursday we might be going in this Thursday.I had a dream the other night that the Dr said she was 10 lbs and her twin was 5 lbs. The Dr said that we had to wait until Jan 2nd before they would let the babies be born so the 5lb cold gain some weight. (see what I mean about my sanity needing a max date) CRAZY PREGNANCY DREAMS I might look and feel like I'm carring twins but come on.

We are holdin out hope that Little MISS STUBBORN comes on her own and we don't have to force her out. She get's her stubbornness honestly from both sides So we can use ANY EXTRA PRAYERS that we can get.

Everything looks better with a bow !!!

Well... maybe not everything. She's still being stubborn so we thought we might as well work with it.

6 days over and counting

Ok I have faced the fact. Or should I say the UGLY truth. They are going to have to take her. She is not coming on her own. She's stubborn and doesn't like change. There is nothing I can do to make her get here. Now that she has missed the Dec 5th date we definitly know that bribery doesn't work. I'm going to call the Dr's office on Monday and see if they can move the ultrasound testing up. The way that I see it is They won't have the results until Friday and then we are talking not doing anything until at least thte 14-15 when I am 14 days late. She's not moving so let's just get this moving along. We don't need a 10lb newborn.

I think Mark is really getting anxious for her to get here too. It is torture. I don't have patence at all and so this really sucks. I have gotten so many calls and e-mails everyone waiting to hear the news. It's wonderful that everyone is so caring it JUST sucks waiting. I'm going to TRY to not think about it for the rest of the day/weekend,but I will still keep everyone updated every day or to even if it's just a NO NOT YET. Then if you haven't heard from me in 3 days somethings up (I doubt it)

Christmas is 3 weeks away

I can't believe that it's almost here. I was talking to Mark this morning and I don't know if I'm going to get Christmas Cards out like I wanted too this year. I have been thinking of idea's for Pictures to put in cards to hand out for Christmas. Mark has even come up with some good ideas, but with the way things are looking if I don't have this baby soon we won' have time to do what we are planning. You'll have to wait and see I guess.

Mark is trying to Bribe the baby. He knows that I think they are plotting against me so he told her if she comes out on the 5th (tomorrow) that he will buy her that Battery operated Red Mustang.He has been talking all along about getting her one to drive around when she's older, but now he's telling her it will be her reward. I don't think she is going to budge. The last couple of days he has been telling her to come out. When he leaves for work and gives me a kiss goodbye he usually rubs my stomach well tonight he started tickling her feet and told her to start heading out. We will see how well she listens. I personally don't think she's ever coming out. She's content where she is and she's not budging.

I just picture her with her arms and legs out saying "nope I'm not leaving"

Today a new change took effect for me. I can no longer reach to put my socks on. Laugh all you want but the past month it has been increasingly more difficult then I could imagine but usually if I sit down and have something to put my foot on I can do it just fine. Well today after 5 minutes of trying and falling My wonderful husband gave me a hand. I told him it as good practice for dressing the baby.

Tomorrow I booked myself for a pedicure. I'm going to see if Chelsey can rub my feet into labor. My overly pregnant Pedicure customers all went into labor with in 24 hrs after there pedicure so we shall see if it works. Worst case scenario my feet will feel good.

Control is an illusion

The Dr's office called me yesterday after I left and of course I didn't have my phone so I didn't talk to them until today. They set me up for some testing next week along with my next appointment. The nurse assured me that this baby should be here no later then the 15th. (Maybe she will hit her uncle's birthday)
I did find out that my Ob will be gone from 6th-13th. The nurse says that is when I will go into labor when I have one of the other partners as a DR. I don't care It would be nice to have Dr. Maney because I have a relationship with her,but I told the nurse that I want to be done and she assured me I should be by the 15th. There is no harm to the baby to be a late. I just like things to be punctial.
I should have learned by now that control is in illusion, but it doesn't mean that I don't try.

PICK A DAY ANY DAY

Just pick a day already. I swear this baby is never going to pick a day. Mark told her to hold out for the Dec birthstone and she did. Everyone has told her she can come out now but the only one she seems to listen to is Mark telling her to stay in there for a while. I know it is common to go 2 weeks over with your first one, but I swear these to are ganging up on me before she is even out of the womb. I thought I would at least have until she was older for that to happen.

Sunday Night with are lovely Snow storm Mark decided to stay home from work with me "Just in case" All though I thought it was thoughtful and Protective of us when morning rolled around and he missed a night of work for nothing I felt bad. I went to work yesterday (which I wasn't planning because I was certain she was going to be here Thanksgiving weekend.) While I was at work Mark called to let me know we didn't have any power. It turns out due to the weather Sunday night most of the town lost power at 9:30 in the morning. We lost it at the house around 11:00. Finally at 12:00a.m. this morning I woke up to lights. I don't know what time they came on I went to bed at 10:30 because I have been so tired.

This morning I had a Dr's appointment and found out that I have not dilated at all. Nothing has changed since my false alarm on the 11th. Talk about a BAD morning. I left my phone at home to boot. At least I wasn't real worried about going into labor or anything now. SO, my solution to my disturbing news was to Cry. Cry I did all the way to work and back home. I slipped in the back door when I got to work. I wanted to wash my face and throw so eyeliner back on,but it was a wasted effort because as soon as I got to mine and Wendy's office and she asked how the Dr's went I lost it again. Real Professional I know. I was glad that we have our own private office away from the other employies because she was the only one that heard my melt down. She has gotten it several times. I always see her first thing after my appointments. With us working together and being friends for the last 7 yrs she makes it really easy to vent to. She calms me down and makes me feel like I'm not crazy. Which is really nice it just sucks for her because she always gets me in my full blown emotional state. This one was the mother of all. I thought that my melt down about having to take the gestational diabetes test was bad this topped it. I'm ready to be done. I want to see her. I want to not be pregnant any more and just move on to the next phase. I guess the keyword is I want. I just feel like my sanity needs it.

I should know that not being dilated really doesn't mean anything since my mom was the same way with me and with in 24 hrs I was here. I'm not getting up my hopes any more. I can't take the disappointment anymore. I'm just trying to force myself into thinking she will come when it's time and Everything happens for a reason, God has a plan all that jazz. I would just like to be clued in.